A letter to the one I love~ #1

It doesn't matter how time passes, my feelings for you remain the same.
You know? for a while I felt at ease...still thinking about you but somehow, at ease~ but lately, my feelings have been jumping around.
Yes, I still think of you everyday, sometimes I miss you more than others but I'm always wondering where you're at, what you could be doing and especially if you ever think of me. That is the hardest, to wonder if you still think of me the way I think of you.

To others it may seem like I'm stuck with these feelings, and maybe I am. But it doesn't feel like a burden, not to me. It's as if you put a spell on me and I can't seem to break it because...maybe I don't want to break it. We both know I'm stubborn so, yeah...

It's funny how I still have all the things that remind me of you~ I cherish every word you shared as one of the most precious things to me.
There are so many things I wish I could ask you, I need my answers, I need you to help me understand. But I also want to be there for you to help you find your way back. I want to help you deal with those hardships. I want to take care of you. My heart hurts knowing you could be suffering; But no matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to find my way back to you.
I'm sure we both have gone through a lot of ups and dows but, isn't that supposed to make us stronger? I always said that I was going to be strong for us, and I did for so long but, I feel so weak now... I can't seem to do it all by myself.
Sometimes I wish I could talk to you about what goes on in my life, and how I feel.

Are you there watching over me? I really hope you are. And if so, just remember how much I miss you and how much I still love you. Nothing has changed in my heart, nothing.
Someone once told me this was A love of a lifetime and wanna know something? I believe it is.

I have a feeling we will meet someday again~ Don't know how, don't know when but, I'm sure we will and I promise myself not to let go of you when that happens. I still dream of our love story.

Happy birthday, Zombie babe. ♥