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And now is when the challenge gets a litte more personal.
WHAT AM I AFRAID OF?
I always try to be as open as possible when I share H2H posts in here and I feel like this is going to be similar to those.
When I read today's topic I first thought about how much I hate hospitals and going to the dentist, then UFOs, haha. But deep down I know there are other, more serious fears I have that is not always cool to talk about.
So, let's start with Failure. It doesn't matter how much of a positive person I try to be, the idea of failing terrifies me! That's why I find it so hard when I have to do demonstration classes at work, because I hate the idea of doing it wrong in front of an audience. Even tho I've done it a million times before, I still get those feelings. Same goes to talking in public and stuff. And this also applies to my personal life. Failing in relationships, plans and dreams. I'm afraid of looking back many years from now to realize I failed to myself and didn't do everything I wanted, the way I wanted. And it's funny because, this actually keeps happening to me, No matter how hard I try or what it is, things don't really seem to go the way I want them to be for whatever reason. And I know, some things are meant to be that way but, I tend to over think a lot and that always makes it worse. I seem to fail at the things I want the most. Maybe it's just me torturing myself over the things I don't have or "can't achieve" but, it is something that sometimes keeps me awake at night.
Add to that I'm constantly comparing myself to others (which I know I shouldn't)~ And it's weird because, I'm not even a perfectionist!!
That's one, the other would definitely be Loneliness. Yeah, as much as I separate the concept of "being alone" and "being lonely" I still struggle with the idea of being lonely in the future. Cuz even tho I know I have amazing people around me, I do get lonely at times. It doesn't affect me as much as it did years ago but it's always a scary feeling and a scary thought.
In a way, I feel like these two fears could be connected somehow? Idk~ But, these are things I also know I have to work on to make it all better. So hopefully, it'll get better with time.
Is there something you're afraid of? Feel free to share with me!
When I read today's topic I first thought about how much I hate hospitals and going to the dentist, then UFOs, haha. But deep down I know there are other, more serious fears I have that is not always cool to talk about.
So, let's start with Failure. It doesn't matter how much of a positive person I try to be, the idea of failing terrifies me! That's why I find it so hard when I have to do demonstration classes at work, because I hate the idea of doing it wrong in front of an audience. Even tho I've done it a million times before, I still get those feelings. Same goes to talking in public and stuff. And this also applies to my personal life. Failing in relationships, plans and dreams. I'm afraid of looking back many years from now to realize I failed to myself and didn't do everything I wanted, the way I wanted. And it's funny because, this actually keeps happening to me, No matter how hard I try or what it is, things don't really seem to go the way I want them to be for whatever reason. And I know, some things are meant to be that way but, I tend to over think a lot and that always makes it worse. I seem to fail at the things I want the most. Maybe it's just me torturing myself over the things I don't have or "can't achieve" but, it is something that sometimes keeps me awake at night.
Add to that I'm constantly comparing myself to others (which I know I shouldn't)~ And it's weird because, I'm not even a perfectionist!!
That's one, the other would definitely be Loneliness. Yeah, as much as I separate the concept of "being alone" and "being lonely" I still struggle with the idea of being lonely in the future. Cuz even tho I know I have amazing people around me, I do get lonely at times. It doesn't affect me as much as it did years ago but it's always a scary feeling and a scary thought.
In a way, I feel like these two fears could be connected somehow? Idk~ But, these are things I also know I have to work on to make it all better. So hopefully, it'll get better with time.
Is there something you're afraid of? Feel free to share with me!
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